Thanks for the kind words guys. I deal with this sort of thing very well but it's when I see others, my cousins, 3 of them will be in a terrible state losing there mum, then my Uncle as well who is usually so cheery found her slumped at the kitchen table while he was getting ready to take her to the hospital, he was a mess. It's seeing how it effects others that gets to me.
Taz I think your moans are very just, your dealing with a very tough situation yourself, I hope it all ends in good news for you though! Thanks Gibs, I will be fine.